why is this pain all I can feel
the rest of the world is a shadow
I walk through the fog knowing nothing is real
looking through separate windows
eyes are glass buttons refelcting the sun
pavement makes more sense than gold
I cannot finish what I have begun
fear is the blood of my soul
and you watch me through my head
your words echo in my mind
it would be easy if you were dead
instead you're just gone
and I can't find
I cannot hurt myself the way I deserve
I pull myself back from the flame
and I always know how much the pain is worth
and I always know who is to blame
I would give anything, anything
words can't explain my sacrifice
I would do anything, anything
no deception or artifice
and you watch me from a distance
your touch lingers on my skin
it would be easy if you were dead
instead you're just gone
and I can't find
this world is filled with spirits
that are nothing more than bags of pain
if I could make their voices quiet
I would never hear again
in my aloneness I am never alone
you are always alone with me
I hope you never find a home
I hope that you are never free
and I watch for your shadow
your image burned into my dreams
it would be easy if you were dead
instead you're just gone
and I can't find